Day 46 | 750 Words Challenge | Morning Pages Challenge | 365 Day Challenge

How do we go about ignoring the facts that we have been frustrated in a few areas within the same time frame? How do we deal with the things that we need to be focusing on all the time? Distractions and things like that are actually getting under my skin all the time and that I cannot let this exploded in the face of everybody. Not after all this time. Id o need to be sure that I am focus and set the priority right. We cannot get things mixed up with the events that are happening too far away from us and that physicality is the key here. There is a phrase that we all have to know from time to time and that we are keen on each other from the beginning but at the end of the day, we cannot sustain the movement and it just stop and never budge any longer.

How do we care about that? Do we need to be so sure that we are in this together? I think not and that we shall see and the end of the session what will happen. Dismissing things without thinking is something I loathe to do and hate to see or hear. But people never bother and when the get into trouble they did not want to admit the situation. That is bold and that is something I cannot tolerate and my silent treatment said it all. I do not want to be arguing with people that are adamant that they are on the right track all the time. The disorganization of things really amazed and frustrated us when we see that at the end of the day we have to get involved and we have to leave what we are doing just to take care of matters that has nothing to do with us in the first place.

How can one casually suggested that others break the rules and that implied that the other people have money and that they can pay for the fines imposed by the local council? Are we not a law abiding society? What are we thinking and that we never seek to understand the system that we have chosen to be the rules and regulations of the country. And yet if we are not in the same zone why bother giving such stupid idea. I got amazed and that is something we need to improve vastly in the immediate future.

There is something that is not right at the beginning of the day and that has gone too far into the new calendar day. This is something that I have intended to ditch earlier in the day and that has not been fruitful. I need to do something about that and that I may have to start to impose the silent mode for the whole of this week. I need to focus on the treatment and how to handle the situation when I am out there everyday in the hospital.

That should be the focus of the week. Any banter can wait and I may just see how it goes and limit my participation in the group conversation unless there is direct message that I have to address. And yet I do also have to see the financial solutions into the trouble that I am in now and also keep on pestering the people that have not done anything to pay back my money that they have borrowed. One has been outstanding since my days with Xeloda in HUKM more than 7 years ago. That is dreadful and I am not going to give up. There is a lot of money there and I have to figure out the desperate moves to get this one going. There other is nearer and that is something that I have to handle without emotion and let them know that what they are doing is not good and that I am human and my patience has limit.

We do fall into grace from time to time and that we have to back up the way and start all over again. There is no time to look back and try to see what when wrong. We do not need to do that and that we all have the flaws back then. We were young and we were full of lust. And that has to stop and we see where to go to a new place tomorrow and do not be worried about things that are coming too far ahead of us. Be calm and look at the present moment. 763 words.